Rabu, 12 November 2014

So on

I don't understand what mood that I felt. It such a terrifying days. People said,  if you feel sad try to write it out cause that's the easiest way to reduce the pain. I'll try..

I don't even know what kind of "(don't wanna say it re:peep)" this. I just feel useless and this is so sick dude. I always have people's back's but nobody ever has mine...i think. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Hm..... do you ever write a really long message and you're like "wait, you know what? they don't even care" and end up with delete it. Suck.

What the hell to you? 

Never ignore a person who loves and cares for you, because one day you may realize that you’ve lost the moon while counting the stars. Being ignored by someone whose attention means the world to you is the worst feeling. Sometimes, I think you forget that I have feelings too.

It was too fast. I don't even now the reason is. You can say HI so you absolutely could say GOODBYE..at least goodbye.. 

There are so many people who care of me. And I still think about you. It's better to quietly miss someone, than to let them know and get no response back. I miss you, but you wrong and I hate you. I wish I could go back to the day I met you and just walk away. Because honestly it would've saved me so much hurt and pain.

Never play someone's feelings because you're unsure yours. Hardest thing in life, letting go of what you thought was real. I'm sorry for being so gloomy.

Jumat, 07 November 2014

Nostalgia

Since line uploaded a mini drama nya AADC, gue ngerasa masih banyakkk orang yang sebenernya rindu masa-masa dulunya. Dan gak tau kenapa juga, gue suka banget sama yang namanya bernostalgia alias flashback ke masa yang dulu-dulu.

First of all gue mau bahas Ada Apa dengan Cinta deh...

2004 itu gue baru kelas 2 SD, gue lupa detailnya kapan yang jelas gue udah dong nonton AADC. Dulu gue nonton di TV aja, karna anak se curut gue mana boleh masuk bioskop dan lagi belum ada mall di kota gue. Dulu seneng banget kalo liat film-film diputar di TV, karna emang produksi film zaman dulu masih gak sebanyak sekarang. Setipe sama Effiel I'm in Love, My heart atau Catatan akhir sekolah. Whahaha

Hm.. 12 tahun. Gue juga udah lupa jelasnya AADC sebagaimana, maklum sih dlu belum terlalu mengerti cinta. Tapi dari mini drama yang gue tonton, kayanya AADC ini adalah salah satu film yang bisa dibilang paling sukses di Indonesia. Kita gak usah liat jadulnya deh, kita liat respon masyarakat aja yang memang seolah berteriak "We need more!!".

Simple, terjawab, nyentuh, kangen, sedih, bahagia dalam durasi 10 menit lebih itu. Bagi gue LINE sih sukses mengemas semuanya. Gak bertele-tele, 10 menit aja kesannya udah dapet dan udah happy ending. Menurut gue, LINE termasuk cukup cerdas dengan memanfaatkan film ini sebagai ajang promosi mereka. I mean what the fuck? Siapa yang gak pernah nonton Ada Apa dengan Cinta. Dan gue yakin pakai banget pastiiiiiiiiiii omset LINE dan penggunanya langsung meningkat.

By the way gue lucu juga sama respon-respon netizen yang lain, kayak:
  • Cinta aja yang cantiknya gitu masih di PHP selama 12 tahun
  • Anggap aja Rangga lulus 18 tahun, tambah 12 tahun jadinya sekarang Rangga udah 30 tahun. Buset masih jomblo? 
  • Gak usah sok-sokan PHP in anak orang kalo lo belum se ganteng Rangga
  • Kenapa gak di ceritain kalau sekarang Cinta udah punya anak dan jadi bintang susu formula aja sih?
  • Gila, 2 hari di Jakarta bisa bikin gagal move on yang udah dibangun selama 12 tahun.
  • Wah Line mau ngeluncurin fitur baru ya? Yaitu chat tanpa jaringan data ataupun WiFi?


Syitt gokil bgt haha. Tapi serius deh, banyak dari generasi 90an yang sebenernya butuh banget hiburan-hiburan se seru zaman dlu. Gue sama temen-temen di kampus kadang suka main tebak-tebakan lagu jaman 2000an. Suka tiru-tiruan gaya sinetron atau acara TV kaya Putri Duyung, Jin dan Jun dan sebagainya. Gue pribadi kadang suka sedih liat acara-acara sekarang. Sumpahnya gue benci banget sama acara kebinatangan atau keindia-indiaan.

Ganteng-ganteng srigala lah, Manusia harimau lah, 7 Harimau lah, gak sekalian aja bikin Suami ku Badak Jawa atau Buku Diary 3 Macan?. Kenapa sih mesti bahas siluman? Kenapa juga mesti ngangkat budaya India? Dan mesti banget gitu ngangkat cerita anak sekolahan tapi cuplikan belajarnya sedikit banget. Ketauan banget boongnya.

Gue sih lebih memilih acara yang ada bobotnya. Atau sama sekali acara komedi aja kaya Malam Minggu Miko atau Tetangga Masa Gitu. Sisanya gue rasa gak memberikan manfaat kalau ditonton. Yakali acara komedi kan bisa buat ketawa, nah kalau yang lain? Gue miris soalnya liat anak kecil yang sok-sokan tua. Kan kena pengaruh TV juga

"Kamu bisa gak sih bersikap dewasa?" kata anak SD yang lagi berantem sama pacarnya.

Sedih banget. Dan gak salah banget kalau anak 90an bener-bener butuh hiburan yang berkualitas. Tentunyaa didampingi makanan 90an juga. Gula gait, mi Fajar, cilok, es gopean, es serut, dan kue tete. Ah..kangen

Senin, 03 November 2014

Conversation about Disappointment

Had a great conversation with my mom. Oh ye, my mom is the first person that I believe the MOST. I always tell every inch of my story to my mom. Every inch, collage life, friends, work or even love.

Mom: "Why that long face?"
Me: "What?"
Mom: "You are upset now, rite?"
Me: "Why you can see it while they couldn't?"
Mom: "Cause I am your mother.... so tell me"
Me: "Why people aren't nice while I'm doing a super nice things to them?"
Mom: "So?"
Me: "Yea.. I mean, I always do my best to everypeople. I care about them, I am also a very loyal person"
Mom: "That's in your mind, rite? People also think like that.."
Me: "But mom, God said for always doing yours in nice way so you also can get a nice respond...why I don't get it?"
Me: "I give them my attention, I trust to them, I don't care about small bad things they did to me, I always forgive them, I always say oke and never mind, If my enemy wants me again...I will even say yes. What else? Isn't my heart good enough?"
Mom: "Don't be a too-good-hearted-girl. People just like that, they are good and bad at once. That's life, don't be so serious.. Don't think too much"
Me: "I always think that being a good girl can give me a good respond for everyone. But they aren't treat me the way I treat them"
Mom: "All you should to just not to be a too-good-hearted-girl if you don't wanna feel too hurt. Cause you can't predict human"
Me: "I don't know mom........and mom can I ask you something? but please no laugh inside.."
Mom: "What?"
Me: "Why people only make an effort when they want something? But when they already got it, they even not take care what actually they want in yesterday?"
Mom: "Love?"
Me: "Not only in love mom.."
Mom: "So yes, people just make an effort for the things they really want. Whatever ways, they would take it. Man..sometimes man always doing like that."
Me: "Why? Why? While here I am..always take care all I have. Things, friends, jobs, and mostly love"
Mom: "Hell no kid, you are still in a longggg way journey. They actually care of you too"
Me: "I wish it too. And mom, how was their feeling when they take a new one and throw away a good one?"
Mom: "Disappointment"
Me: "But they always trying to looking good................ I know the answer"

End up conversation.

As you already knew, I just can't.....being rude with everypeople. I prefer to stop talking with them than saying a bad words. Actually, I'm in upset mode. But not too much, cause my mom teach me how to not upset anymore. I learn that there's no good people. I met many people everyday, some of them look so good in the outside but actually they are a sly. I met a grumpy one, and they surely a very good person and kind. There was yin and yang. There always be 2 side of life. But I still believe, bad and good people probably can life together. Hugging like yin and yang... and also do cuddles.