Jumat, 08 Maret 2024

I am unwritten

I can speak the words on your lips. 

Drench yourself in words unspoken.

Senin, 05 Februari 2024

Bon Appétit (2)

I saw u

Ur so fragile

The cold of ice seems hotter than u

Someone so lost to understand that live maybe that hard

Poor people, living in sky but buried down in ground

It must be hard for you

To saw me as your reflection

Just admit it

Its hurt right to call me the one that got away?

Better take that sad song called “chemistry” to wipe your long confession

Cause today I understand that we didn't need that

We just need a moment to think, that even though we are in one line doesn't mean we could go to the same way.

Cheers to tasteless drink and cold food. Finally...Bon Appetit!

 


Minggu, 04 Februari 2024

10:2

 

Dalam isyarat kepolisian kode 10.2 memiliki arti “dimana” atau pertanyaan posisi saat ini. 

Dimana?

Ini tempat favorit ku, beratapkan langit, tanpa pendingin udara, tempat ini sudah cukup sejuk untuk fikiranku yang berisik.

One of my friend sent me video https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSF8MjtSw/ It said that some of women could live in death (mind). And my friend said “Semoga Punol Sehat Selalu”

Ingin ku jawab, memangnya aku kenapa? Apakah orang dalam vidio itu aku? Memangnya fikiran apa sih yang selalu memenuhi otak ini?.

If I could scale it from one to ten, I surely had 0. I’m clueless, again. Like someone lost a direction but still heading North.

Di tubuhku, aku punya 10 semangat, I know it wrong, I know I might be suffering again and again. Tapi biarkan aku menikmati semangatku ini, dari pada aku harus membusuk sendiri dengan hati yang sudah lama tak kumiliki.

Dengan 2 pertanyaan yang tersisa. Bolehkah aku utarakan sekarang?

Apakah aku akan bahagia? atau apakah orang mati itu akan hidup lagi?


Selasa, 16 Januari 2024

Guess Me Not

I still figure it out when was the last time I felt this kind of feeling…

Is that love?

Did I love you?

I've tried praying but I don't know what you're saying to me…


You blew me out, brutally 

Like Im your 2am thought

Sadly you have more than enough time to think about another topics

I just a losing stars who try to light up the dark


But, I could see a big sky with you tho..

You even provide me a champagne supernova that I never been imagine before..

Then again, the fact is you own your universe that I enjoyed being in tiny space of it.


Either this a lovely poem or not, 

it will come in your point of view.

We are just Two of a kind

Could we find a way? Or will there be a way?

With all the things caught in my mind


All we seem to know is how to show the feelings that are wrong.

there's not a lot to say, guess me not?

Senin, 01 Januari 2024

Bon appétit!

Call me an angel but actually I'm a Silent Killer. You could die by seeing my Smile. Call me a devil but actually I'm your sweet dream....but still please prepare for the worst nightmare.

Deep down in my soul, I know I had that thing. I know I had that emotions. I just waiting for the best timing to set my revenge scene. People said that the very good revenge start with present the most delicious food in cold. Was everything alright? Would you like coffee or dessert too?

Speaking about food....

Oh Life...Do you remember how I warn you about my condition? that day I feel starving...and you bring me an Ice Cream, you even propose me with a special brew. That day I think we agree that everyone is happy. 

Until you give me a poison apple.... 

But don't worry, I've prepared the most delicious thing that you wouldn't miss a bite. Please enjoy my bunch of piece of disenchantment.

Sabtu, 30 Desember 2023

Ambivert

Sometimes I like to think about how weird I’m. Gue ini sebenernya punya kepribadian apa? Gue merasa, I can express my feelings and share the happiness to other…but beside that, I can’t accommodate mine. Likeeee lo ngerti gak? Kayak lo itu bisa sharing kebahagian ke orang lain, cerita-cerita menarik ataupun motivasi ke orang, tapi lo sendiri ga mampu memotivasi diri lo. 

Gue juga merasa punya satu sifat yang unik but I think it was good tho… Gue bisa menyerap sifat orang lain, just like a sponge whoever person next to me, whoever person that I frequently talk with, whoever person that I frequently share with…gue bisa berubah menjadi almost “dia”.

Apa gue gak punya karakter?

And this night I overthink about that, in 02:57 am I discover that I might be Ambivert. Seseorang yang punya dua sisi kepribadian. Dan itu benar.

I might be a social animal, that ice breaking person, or maybe the joker at my community. But sometimes that thing reduce my energy. Don’t get me wrong, tapi gue capek loh. Sometimes I wish people not seeing me. 

Akhir-akhir ini gue sadar, kalau kita gak bisa terlalu dekat dengan orang-orang. I mean a had a lots of friend. Most of time kemana-mana gue pasti ketemu orang yang gue kenal. Di tempat kerja pun gue kenal banyak orang, gak di kampung gak di luar kota. But not all of them is the true friends—event the closest one. They are the same : they can stab me from behind. 

Someone that I think one of my closest one aja baru-baru ini ngomong kalau she is not. “Kita kan ga sedekat itu” and now I’m seeing she post a status saying bad things about me. Nyinyir aja sih, tapi jadinya bener, because the closest one don’t stab each other.

As and ambivert, maybe gue harus kurangin porsi extrovert gue. Karna once kita terlalu ramah ke orang lain, rasa segan mereka udah hilang—from strangers become friends. Dan tidak semua mesti menjadi teman lo. From friends become close friend. Dan tidak semua bisa diberikan kepercayaan itu. Oh poor Punol, she thinks everyone has a good heart ‘till her bloods runs out.

I wish I know it early, to make my circle small, and absorbing their ‘good’ side with no after taste.

Jumat, 17 November 2023

Champagne Supernova

I wrote this things for a reason, so you all can sit there in this hurt. I even can’t remember when was the day I flying in Supernova Sky? I think my wings had broken from the last day he told me about Betrayal. 

I walk out 

I walk alone, not in a wing, not in one wing, I walk alone without anything. And it always be that way. 

I had a speech, I’m speechless. I had a joke, and the punchline was me.

How many special people change? How many lives are livin’ strange? This damn November flush just hit different. Cause people believe that they’re gonna get away from the summer….but you and I, we live and die.

You won’t remember all my Champagne Problems anyway…but someday you will find me, caught me beneath the landslide in a champagne supernova. 

Sabtu, 04 November 2023

The Era's Tour Movie

Just finish watching The Era's Tour in theater yesterday. Bagi gue TS bukan hanya seorang idola, tapi juga role model. She just a definition of hardworker girl, she chasing her dream since 17yo, She even standing alone on her feet when her conflict with kadar-shit-an happend. 

Gue masih ingat bagaimana TS hilang dari peredaran, memilih untuk diam while everyone around the world mocking her and naming her Snake. Padahal, faktanya gak begitu tetapi dia rela mengalah dan diam, she postponed the album to make a new masterpiece to slap her rivals.

Memang the best revenge is being more greatful and shine brighter.  

Gue juga gak lupa kasus dimana seluruh master rekamannya -- herrrrrrrrrr voiceeeeeeeee di juallllllllll oleh Scooter Braun sehingga akhirnya TS gaboleh nyanyikan lagu-lagu lamanya, TS juga bahkan tidak mendapatkan royalti dari streaming lagu-lagunya. Tau gak dia ngapain, TS malah merekam ulang lagu-lagunya dan mengemasnya kembali menjadi album Taylor Version.

Is there any reason not to loving her?

GADA COY

TS was perfect. A mature girl with a mastermind. She kill them with kindness and that's the point. Bold that quote in the red underline. 

Dear mbak Taylor, makasi ya sudah menjadi role model di hidupnya mbak Punol.